Still...

 

I look for traces of you in everything, 

A way of life, where memories linger

The ache of absence echoes in empty space,

Like the scent of wildflowers in a deep wood's embrace

In places we called our own, I still see you,

Lanes where hands held warmth and hopes wove love

Resting my head on your shoulders calmed the storm within

Eyes met, and time seemed to stand still and surreal 

Echoes of connections, lifetimes old,

An invisible chord that tied us, never to unfold

I visit the home we built, in imagination's space,

Sans bricks, but filled with love's charm

A home I claim as mine, where I dwell and recall

Treasured moments, woven like a precious hall

Is it empty now? Or is it alive with memories sown?

A bond that stood strong, through trials, love has known

Laughter, banter, bittersweet and true,

Promises unspoken, yet a solid bond 

I knew this wouldn't last in mortal form,

So I set you free, though my heart longed to embrace you forever

Albeit, with a hope that our paths will cross, again

In another dimension, beyond time & space

Or perhaps, in another lifetime,

Where there won't be any space & scope

Of misunderstandings or conditions beset

Emerge!

 

In wreck we must find hope

When pieces are often shattered & we are bemused,

Confused, muddled

Empower, why not?

In a gratifying manner

To alter much-needed equilibrium

Of less desired indolence

Challenge infinite possibilities

Trigger level next competence

So, don't shy away from challenges

But face them with courageous might

For in the darkness seeds take root

And from the ashes phoenixes take flight

In every fall, a lesson lies

A chance to rise, to learn, to thrive

Embracing struggles, 

we find our strength

And in the chaos,

a new path is designed

Through trials and tribulations, we're refined

Like tempered steel, our spirit shines

With every scar, a story's told

Of resilience, courage, and a heart of gold

In the depths of struggle, we discover our might

And emerge stronger, wiser, and more radiant in light

Unspoken Shadows

 

Silence is louder than words
Non articulation is like a labyrinth
Quest to scratch and uncover
What lies beneath
Becomes futile assertion
And unfolds itself
In gradual desertion
A repulsion to crack open
Restrain to let go of what is broken
Holding tight shredded pieces
With an intent to resurrect
Even though it pricks, bleeds and pains
And the heart discerns pointlessness
A hope, a desire, perhaps
That ceases to untangle the knot
Dawdling act to break the cord
A conversation intentionally ignored
To safeguard deepest emotions
That is best when buried deep
And are not open for exploration
But, do they rest in peace
Or, rather are in many pieces
Is a question to be asked
The weight of unspoken truths
Pressures the heart
The frayed but fragile cord
Flickers still in darkest night
But, in silence
It is hard to dream
Of mending what's broken
Of healing the pain
Of finding solace in love's refrain

Flashback

Memories are etched in moments

The ones the mind forgets

By time & choice

And force?

Perhaps, to bury some pain

Perhaps, to refute a feeling

Perhaps, it's a part of healing 

But, heart? 

It remembers every bit

The bittersweet ache of love

The places & faces have traces

And then?

It laments the pain of bygone

It echoes the tale of betrayal

When wounds re surface

Passing through dark dungeons

Of nothingness

Why this?

Karmic patterns

A soul contract 

Carrying guilt of lifetimes 

Fear & grief alike

Scars of yesteryears

Aching in pain

What next?

Accept what is

To rise, survive & revive

Ressurect, forget?

Then, quiz?

Was it real

Or an illusion

Created from imagination 

& Longing

Closure?

Slow fading

Of a story 

That never was

An end which 

Never had a starting point

Thresholds

 

A door stands tall, a threshold to paths, 

The bougainvillea, with flowers so bright,

A symbol of life's vibrant, colorful light

The cat, a watcher, with eyes so wide,

Her presence, a reminder, to pause and reflect,

On life's journey, with its twists and inspect

The door, a choice, between what's known and unknown,

A passage to growth, or a path overgrown.

The bougainvillea, with its thorny might,

A reminder of life's challenges, and the need to fight

But even in darkness, there's beauty to see,

A chance for growth, and a new destiny.

The cat's wise eyes, a guide on our way,

Through life's ups and downs, come what may

So let us walk, through life's door with care,

And may the bougainvillea's beauty be our share.

May we find strength, in the cat's gentle might,

And navigate life's twists, with courage and light

Shield of serenity

Erecting fences 

To guard one's heart

To protect peace

To shield from toxic rain

Is to honor heart's sacred shades

The boundaries stand 

Like a gentle shore

A deliberate choice

To shut the gates

To filter out the noise

To deflect the arrows 

Of others' plight

The emotional voice

The garden within 

A sanctuary deep

Protected from darkness

Of endless night

Channelizing the water

A steady stream 

To nourish the soul

To quench it's dream

To guide the way

Through life's stormy sea

To the shores of peace

Where the soul can be free

Awakening

Collision with a forgotten part of self

Can stir the soul 

Awaken echoes from lifetimes past

Unravel karmas written before birth

And ignite a fire, you didn't know existed

Deep within, buried through spirals of lifetimes 

A blueprint of spiritual awakening 

A soul contract agreed upon 

To encounter life lessons

To experience, grow & evolve 

Universe records every line

A ledger of deeds, forever divine

Cosmic threads bind

Until we learn to fly

Yet, in this reckoning

Lies a chance

Not surrender to fate

But, create a new slate

Through forgiveness & love

We can break free

Rewrite & play a new part

With an open heart

Chains of resentment break & fall

The burden lifts

While the pain gradually drifts

Unbound

Unique in my own way

I know how to make the world sway

Why should I morph macho traits

When I can embrace myself with grace

Gentle in my etiquette 

But, think not that I am delicate

Most often I am devalued

But, why not cognize my aptitude

Tell me not what a man can do

For, I can tread my own path too

Soaring up to conquer high

Think not that I will comply

Put me in predefined boxes

Or tag me with prejudice knoxes

Living life on my own terms

Have this resolute stern & firm

Shining bright in my own light

Igniting my inner dynamite

Passion to follow my heart or what I like

Be it dancing, boxing or art alike

I can create new trails

Or modify what prevails

Empowerment is Paradoxical 

In a culture which is overtly patriarchal

To break free chrysalis of chauvinism

Why do we need activism

For humanity supercedes any definition

Unresolved Threads

Treaded a long way

Since our paths forked 

Fell apart, shredded into pieces

Ashes of which

Were blown off to the universe

With a silent prayer seeking peace

Although the heart knew it wasn't a closure

There was more to be told & felt

Bygones were buried or treasured deep within

Agonizing the lamenting soul

That curled up & bottled itself

Wore layers of masks

To befit societal norms 

But, repression doesn't decompose 

Emotions that hold a deeper purpose

Are meant to resurface

When bonds are karmic, 

They spin in confusing forms

Only to converge

With a purpose of trial

A mighty pull

Irresistible almost 

Inspite of denial

Eyes sparkle a connection deeper

Meridian of veins transmit a pinnacle of emotions 

Transfusing multiple lifetimes

That bore longing, pain & betrayal