Evanescence

Waking up to a fresh lambent morning
she sets off to find meaning of reality
or rather reality itself
away from castles built in air
remote from emotions & expressions
she stumbles upon concrete
that had meaning & essence
not deep, but wide
its futile to gaze ahead
instead live in the present, she insists self
nevertheless, summoning to the fact
that present had a bearing on the future
though not likely to foretell what is in store,
it is prudent to stay cautious & on the course
than wander & afloat in unknown terrains
looking back, she realized, 
sinful paths that were trodden,
soulful bliss & on its flip side,
betrayal that was experienced
consequently, repentance that was forborne,
all had stubbornly perched inside
leaving deep residues in her heart
this is now fading & gradually vanishing
the bloom is back, resurfaced itself
thus, like a brimful of beatitude,
life now seems like a gratitude showered on her

Boon or Curse ?

And our paths clashed,
serendipity or volition of act
little did I know, least did I care
for I trampled along blindfolded,
elated, delighted & thrilled
smiling at my fate
obligated to the almighty
that he bestowed his blessings 

like a boon it seemed,
to have you around me
like a guardian angel
with its halo suitably over me
to shield from the evil
& fend from the foul

so then, I treaded further...
to the lands unknown
where dreams were sublime
heart met heart, 
soul mingled with soul
behold! I held myself back
& asked...'Will this stay?
the state of bliss, 
the act of faith
will this be unhampered 
with time's fate?'
answers I had none
so, I pursued & persisted
inched it even further
till it became
a part & parcel of my being
then the day came 
when realization dawned
as a hard-hitting fact
that all this was not sacrosanct
but sacrilegious
lost in the swamp,
muddled in peccability
I battled to move up
but, like a bog it pulled me down
I screamed & struggled
with no one to heed my call,
drowned and lost myself forever



 


 

Discrepant roads

Eying on a path less traversed,
with gleaming & expectant eyes,
glow on her face, solicitous breath,
& a heart with sigh,
she set out on a voyage,
a journey to the unknown lands,
initially, it took a lot of courage,
to accept the illicit truths
but, intoxicated, as she was,
thereby omitted the obscure conditions,
which appeared like scattered pieces,
of a crossword puzzle
a bewildering maze that amazed her
Nevertheless, she uttered,
the heart abides by no rules,
it simply follows all that is alluring 
So, the trip begun with an anticipation,
of reaching to a land where,
only truth dwelled & absolute reality!
however, was it what she had foreseen?
dusted by a sense of vagueness
misted by a degree of murkiness,
it seemed complete contrast,
to all that was envisaged!

Dawning Glory

Old reminiscences came flooding, 
like strong waves, splashing all over
soaking all over & again!
with its hungry tides, 
it swept remnants of all that had lingered 
for a long time now!
In the deepest recesses of her soul,
she had buried it all,
with a fear of existential crisis
& an anxiety of forcing the prices,
But then,
'All that happens has an underlying reason', they say
perhaps all this was a part of her fate
to show her what she could not see off-late!
The strength that she now feels within,
the courage with which she sets off to face the world
makes her wonder,
what if all this was never experienced?
the child in her would never have grown
had it remained inside & never had shown?
With its new found glory,
she sets to face the Sun, 
its heat & fiery rays can harm her not
for she has found, what she had sought
peace of mind and a firmer heart
So now she knows,
its time to make a new start!

Arcadia

A beam of sunlight escaped through the cleft,
And I thought it was a shiny day
It filled my heart with joy,
And I thought it would stay
The joyous me laughed like a child!
When peeked through the rift,
What did I see, Oh! What did I see?
A creek flowing through,
A boundless beauty of greenery,
It awaited to be indulged & immersed
It tickled me to explore beyond
Allured me to experience all that I could only see

Fully amused & excited,
I rose up & headed ahead
It fascinated all the more,
And as I approached,
It invited with its open arms
A glorious moment awaited ahead,
An unknown world which seemed enticing.
Almost there, a closer view,
Enchanted, enthralled, amazed!
What did I see, Oh! What did I see?
Greenery was just a patch, 
Rivulet it was not, but a just a bog!
Anguish, remorse, penitence,
Turned around, headed back,
Suddenly, with a grin on the face,
What if it was what anticipated,
It moved & succored my soul,
And it led me to momentary bliss
We live in moments they say,
Why do we then recollect
A charming long lost day?


 







 

Seventh heaven

Up above the soul rises, baffled
To a world unknown, to a world sublime
To tranquility, to serenity, away from the mess
An angelic embrace awaits there
Spreads its arms, calls me forth, comforts heart's pace
Euphoric, harmonic, eternal bliss!
Ah! is this 'heavenly abode'?
Or whatever they call it?
Where enchanted beings dwell without a pod?
And with an identity of their own,
Neither impelled nor urged
Their existence is placid
& is conclusively lucid
The heart interrogates -
'Why am I hovering here'?
'Do I belong here'?
'Oh holy lord! what do you now wish to show me?'
'My dear! You now belong here'
'Your heartfelt wish has been adhered to'
'You may stay here, forever, for you are now one of us'
The pacifying inflection
Tells me I have arrived at a state of fate
Where my soul left the body
To alight at vivacity

Real realized!

She parked herself by the sea, her feet buried in sand. Exhausted, as they were, by sprinting on the beach, now needed a breather. Little jewels had just popped up in the horizon, as she gazed at them with an absolute awe. Some forming impressions, while others distant to each other. The fresh breeze that touched her cheeks, filled her senses with joy and made her introspect about life in general. Her memories took her to the years spent by. Her joyous self found in absolute delight of embracing the one she loved, the one who was so  dear to her soul. Hands clenched, lips locked, hearts pounded, those sweet somethings whispered, she found herself in trance! It was no less than meditation...peace attained! Promises there were none, a mere mutual understanding & trust had bind them together. Beyond reach, beyond axiom of reality. Reality was it...or just a dream? She woke up and found herself desolated...no waves, no sky, no hands to hold on, no arms to embrace...her awakening self told her all was lost while she was in a deep slumber...or was there anything to be lost at all? Reality realized - dream it was!