The Void That Smiles

Illusion and duality of existence persisted till you commanded

And to acknowledge what is ‘real’ is now coerced

If ‘real’ is what I must ensue

What, How & Why I reflect

But now that I have none to heed my call

I ask myself - what is inferred from the pain I endure?

Or is it empathized and sensed at all?

If not, why I ask & how I wonder!

For the soul endears, feels and comforts

For that’s how it has been responding all this while

Why is it now buttoned-up, speechless and numb?

The bitterness is an aftermath of all that was experienced

The foul words that were uttered

Is nothing but a sequel of;

Rejection, avoidance, arrogance, egotism & selfish intentions

How then, the ache of the significant other resonated and attended to?

Its acerbic boldness borne?

Resultantly, comforted, eased off with a smirk?

A helping shoulder lent & tears wiped off?

Does the new-fangled thrill envelops to a magnitude

That the longstanding alliance fails to charm?

Love not understood is critiqued

Patience not possessed is remarked

Insanity of mind & soreness of heart ridiculed

So, then I probe…the loneliness that was swallowed,

How else would have the soul responded?

Love as I understand is purest of emotions

Now, it has become a teaser

Chuckles at me and asserts –

Ever mystifying I am!

Not timeless but momentary I am!

Not pious but conditioned I am!

I attract, then detract…at my own free-will

I space out when there is space

I boggle your mind, I offend your heart

I become your part & then I depart

None knows me well…for I do not know self!

If only parting was mutual

If only it did not make the heart sore

If only all that lied ahead was anticipated,

No questions would have been asked

No answers would have been sought

For all that was understood

For all that was fought for

Is all that is lost…forever!

And all that remains is a void soul within…

It cries and laments inside

However, braces up to the world with a smile

After all, it’s socially conditioned to enact in a way

That it is acceptable & revered

Respected & honored..